13 weeks!

I get so excited every Tuesday when I go on babycenter.com and it tells me that a new week has begun! This week is week 13... I am very confused as to if I am in the last week of my first trimester or the first week of my second trimester. So many things say differently. Oh well, I'm 13 weeks in whatever trimester and that makes me happy :)

I thought morning sickness was over... it came back this morning, ew. I hate throwing up. But like my grandma says, "it means that baby is in there really good!" so I'll throw up as much as I need to and be grateful about it.

I know it might be a little early to show, but holy nuts, I feel like during the past 5 days I see a difference daily. Seriously! I mean, even when I was at my very thinnest in college I didnt have a perfectly flat tummy, so I dont claim for it to out of the ordinary that my belly is pudgy. This is different though, its not jiggly bigger, its round and full bigger. Its AWESOME! To the outside world It still looks like I'm a McDonalds drive through frequent flyer... Not for long though! (PS. My obsession with egg mcmuffins has subsided, so that really isnt the reason hehe :))

As my belly grows so does my anxiety about what is going to happen after the baby is born. I dont have maternity leave AT ALL, I refuse to put my newborn baby in any kind of daycare. I do work from home but there are always last minute meetings onsite at Microsoft, I will have to travel and not to mention I spend most of my day on conference calls... you think they'd appreciate a screaming baby in the background? I think not. Its so hard. Oscar's sister just had a baby and she gets 5 months off for maternity leave (not to mention the 2 months she got off before she had the baby) If Nicaragua and the rest of the world can figure out the importance of the higher calling of motherhood, you'd think the US would get on board. But no. Jerks.

We have decided to attempt to bring Oscar's mom up for a year or so. That way, she can get to know my family, where we live, our baby and we wouldnt have to leave our baby with just anyone. This would be such a huge sacrifice for his mom who hasnt been out of Nicaragua and speaks not one word of English. I think it would be great, I'd get to know Oscar's mom better, I'd be forced to speak spanish again, I could work and not feel like the worst mom EVER. I hope it works out!!!